This is Hope. She is my favorite and my best.
This morning I had to drop her off in sea of kids to spend 7 hours in a sing-songie, primary-colored prison. Okay, so I'm exaggerating a tad... it can't be that bad, right?
An unassuming, happy face on her way to school...
then realizing what's going on. I want to reassure her that I'm not purposefully abandoning her, the state is making me. And, I realize home school is an option, but she's quite socially awkward already, I fear holing her up in the house with no friends or siblings... just MOM... hee, hee, hee... would allow her to be entirely reclusive. I know, I know, not all home school kids are odd...
I suppose this is just a bit of venting after a day of change. I spent most of it with that pukey feeling in my belly, wishing the time would pass faster... holding back the tears. It sucks when you're little one is, by definition, no longer little and shipped off for a good chunk of the day.
Lesson learned today: when life gives you lemons, you turn right around... and punch it in the face!
okay so I love your animals and ventured over here from etsy.. anyways I don't know how you feel since I'm 20 and in college, but my mom and I are super close. She told me there have been a few milestones like Kindergarten, Driving off alone for the first time, and then leaving for college that have made her burst into tears. Just thought I'd share, not that it's anything you don't already know. Hope tomorrow is a better day!
ReplyDeleteP.S. Congrats on 100... your stuff is amazing. I'm debating over wether I have the money to splurge on one.
Homeschool, homeschool, I say! I homeschool 3 of my 4 (the last one is a wee boy who isn't old enough yet....) and then you don't have to send your baby off. As long as she has other activites too, she'll get plenty enough socialization. Plus, who knows the way she learns, or loves her, better than you do?
ReplyDeleteYeah, homeschool is seeming pretty sweet at this point. I miss her so much during the day, and by the time she gets home she poops out early because they run her so ragged. I appreciate the comments on this matter. It's so scary when you are making life choices for a little one.
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